mindless chatter

You.

2011-08-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

If you still come to this abandoned blog of mine
from time to time...

"..i wonder if i ever cross your mind
for me it happens all the time."

Christina Aguilera - Bound to you

2011-02-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I've opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us

You're all I need when I'm holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young
I've faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I'm strong and I'm sure there's a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don't tear this apart

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can't you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall

Oh, I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
And finally found my way
I am bound to you

I am,
Ooh, I am
I'm bound to you

Off to Taiwan

2011-01-27T13:42:00.000-08:00

Beautiful scene, isn't it?

Currently at taiwan,
ximending actually(:

Alright,
shall update more
when i have the time
cos im gonna sleep now
for breakfast tomorrow:D
and of course,
more activities!^^

Not in the christmasy mood

2010-12-25T18:45:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS YALL
hope yall had a blast.

Cos it doesnt feel like christmas to me.
Boo.

Just thought i do a lil update here
before i meet Toh and gang
for some eating session.

(though i seriously wonder who STILL visits)

Exams are over.
But i should seriously start prepping for next year.
But funding...
Money Issues.
Gahh. =/

Been eating peanut butter and bread
and of course, maggie mee
everyday at work.

Ah yes, work.
Been at T2's Pasta Waraku.
ALL THE SERVICE STAFF ARE GIRLS.
hahas.
It's still something i gotta get used to though.
They make me miss my years in poly terribly. :(

Working everyday like there is no tomorrow,
like seriously.
Some people i really cant get along with
and some i find soooooo hard to please.
And plus a lot of :'((( that i cant find the words to describe.
Just thinking of the times at work makes my eyes brim
with tears.

辛苦, really 辛苦.

But i gotta bite my tongue and press on
for a fantastic 2011 and for NUS.

加油 to myself.

On a happier note,
I SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT FOR 2011~!!!
I DO remember that i have to mug HARD next year
but there are 'perk-me-ups' like...

1. TAIWAN
2. KOREA
3. BANGKOK

Yes, hopefully number 1 and 3 solidifies.
Man, i seriously cant wait to go. :D

These are the reasons why maggie taste soo
nice that i want to eat them everyday.
HAHAHA(:

Okay,
I need to get some rest now,
shall blog about 2010 before the year is over.
Though i can sum this year up in two words:
Like Hell.

LOL.
Here's a christmas song by coldplay
which has grown on me.
May sound boring to some.
But im a boring person so here it is(:

thats all i want to say

2010-12-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

...just because forever is more worth it.

Officially over.

2010-10-27T23:11:00.000-07:00

***
I learnt that there is no point making everyone
around you happy
when you're falling apart on de inside.

J sincerely hates me now.
He even deleted me off facebook.
Even said i was Easy.
And hell loads of hurtful things
that i dont wanna say here.

"被爱是幸福的"

well, i dont feel that way.
im gonna be with someone whom i love
like really do.(:

Let's just hope
that i dont make de wrong mistakes again:(

toodles.

What i really wanted, is Dentistry.

2010-10-20T23:03:00.000-07:00

This is on my desk.
Guess i didnt Stareeee at it enough.

Random pic from dear holga baby.
Outdated already.
It's more like 7+++++ days left.

What i really wanted,
is STILL
.
.
.
Dentistry.

Freaking straight A course.
Even tougher to get in than med school.

Only W can get in can.

I feel like retaking :((
I know where i stand.
So dont tell me to jiayou.
Cos oil cant save me now.

But no matter what,
i'll definitely land a job
as a clinical assistant after de exams.

Diedie must get one.
Hmph.

Michhhhh... T.T

the thirteenth

2010-10-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

thirteenth.
.second.

Nothing.
dont remember?

i waited.
.
.
.
Nothing.

regret.
not enough.
diminishing feelings.

two days.
cry fest.
three weeks.
three years.
JC.
time.
effort.
Give up.
Cant bear to.

Why?

'There is a time for everything.'
So damn true.

The next will be the last.

4weeks left

2010-10-03T19:50:00.000-07:00

Missed me? x)

Gawd.
Im getting fatter.
T.T

2 of J's best friends.
Weekends this week has been
fun,sweet,simple & guilty all at de same time.
We went kite-flying at east coast(:

Used the BBF over the weekend too;
snapping away happily at everything.
Just cant believe my luck when J's fren
is actually willing to lend me.
:DDDD

However,
im back home nursing a throbbing headache.
I feel so short-fused now
i could just scream at anyone who crosses my path.
Rawr. =/

And im Supposed to go overnight studying later!
Sorry~ =/
Really pleasant surprise that u would actually ask though.(:

Hmm..
Going Orchard tomorrow to mug my life away
with charlotte and nisa.
They're just awesome study buddies xD

4weeks.
IM NOT READY.

misery cover

2010-09-21T23:28:00.000-07:00

Good cover
i like(:

You're sticky sweet to me

2010-09-17T19:43:00.000-07:00

Current earworm♥

I don’t wanna hold off because you’re sticky,
You’re sticky-sweet on me.
I don’t wanna hold off cause I’m inspired by your
Off-beat dreams.

i hate this movie.

2010-09-11T20:51:00.000-07:00

i $@#%ing hate this movie.

then again;
i hate myself more.

:'(

2010-09-11T01:39:00.000-07:00

辛苦。

很辛苦。

你不知道的事

2010-09-06T02:48:00.000-07:00

... 多的是你不知道的事

G

2010-08-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

No matter what happens,
Ive decided since March
That 2010 is for you.
You're my motivation.

I cant just simply give up on A's, can i? =/

But im so losing the wager with Reeve liao..

♥

2010-08-19T01:54:00.000-07:00

Dear J,
you're amazing.
Im really sorry for keeping you in wraps. :(
Finally, a boyf who isn't 'ashamed'.

Now,
it feels like i am.
But im not, im more afraid of what...
actually, of what my friends really think.:(
one of my frens actually think im damn retarded.

My friends' opinions are important yknow?

So, consider this a first step(:

Not many will visit this blog but at least once in awhile,
i believe some still do.

i♥you (:

okay then.

2010-08-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

Damn cute la(:

I'd to rear a chinchilla
but it cost AT LEAST 700bucks!
And i fell in love with one that
cost $1.8k!!
Me and my expensive taste.
*gasp*

One day..
I'll come for you(:

Okay.
Wont blog anymore
until after a's perhaps?
heh.

Got loads of stuff to spill la
but this is probably not the place
*looks over at de dusty book*
Hmm.

Just a few random updates:

1. I realise that i can be such a hypocrite.
But maybe that's because of de no of friends i have left.
Suck it up, des.

2. Im back to studying on my own.
Guess its real hard to find anything permanent huh?

3. Got a scandal in class...
Do you know how it feels when people tease you
about a guy and you subconsciously think about another?
And how much your 'scandal' makes you miss him?
And you're really, really, really not supposed to?
Sigh.

Gimme a break already.

4. Cant wait to see my baby
tomorrow!(hopefully)
thenthenthen
i'll have to step-up on selling her already.

"you let go of good things to make way for better things to come"
Ahh. My dream for a bigger baby(:
cbr400 or rvf?
hehe(:

Prioritise

2010-07-19T18:38:00.000-07:00

Note to self:
Anything that does NOT contribute to getting an 'A'
for A levels should not be thought about.
And obviously should not involve yourself either.

Focus des, focus.

***
On a happier note,
I've FINALLY got a good(permanent) study buddy(:
She's awesome,amazing,bubbly,smart...
and freaking out ever since i told her it's like
15 weeks to 'A's.
But she's awesome la.
Oh i've said that twice(:
Her name's Nisa
and yeah, she's not chinese.
And she one of the RARE ones who
doesnt have faceook!
wow!xD

Oh, FOP is like 2weeks from now.
Im so looking forward to it(:
Ah, hopefully i'll be able to ask W along.
Just felt that he should.

But he's being a real ass recently.
Boo.

*crosses fingers*?

22randomness

2010-07-15T23:13:00.000-07:00

HAHA(:

Really wonder who reads this shiet at all.
Maybe i can start bitching about people here soon.
Hurhur.
Just saying(:

***
"You know, im worried about [insert name]..."
Makes me wonder,
does anyone really care about me?

Years ago,
someone's bday wish was for me
to disappear.
I'll never forget that.

***
22 Random updates

1. Im severely addicted to Tumlr.
Very, very bad.

2. 50 tweets and i'll quit twitter.
(no point when you're not popular)

3. The bastard's making my ears bleed by playing so badly on the piano now.
WTH/S/F IT'S 10:40PM NOW, DAMMIT

4. 16weeks and i really think i cannot make it.

5. Strangers can sometimes be nicer than the people i DO know.

6. The two people i text the most right now are attached and also the people whom probably helped me shaped my life till' today.
♥ you two,
Toh & Michelle(:

7. But on most days, idk why i even know why i got a phone for.

8. I have a secret DISLIKE for some people.

9. Going to Starbucks actually makes me sad but reminds me to study too.

10. Im slowly becoming less of an owl so i guess this is a good start?
Maybe?

11. I really cant do math to save my life.

12. I've decided it's time to let my baby go.
Gonna call up for quotations and do her up pretty.

13. End of this year, im getting a tattoo.
There's a meaning&reason behind it.

14. I feel so transparent around W.
Boo.

15. Idk why but i think i have the word "Attached" stamped on my forehead or something.
Seems some people just cant believe im not.

16. Transportation fares are a serious bitch.
Screw you 'pay by distance' =.=
We should learn to start walking to town.
HAHA(:

17. Thank God for Breadtalk's 10 for $10.
No prizes for guessing what im having on a daily basis.

18. But why the hell am i STILL gaining weight?!

19. Sometimes when you pretend too much,
you actually start believing in your lie.

20. I really dont think i can go through with this.

21. I really wonder what God wants to do in my life in this 2010.
Tell me already la can?

22. However, i must remember that THIS is exactly what i had prayed for at the beginning of this year.

**

Kill me.

meow

2010-07-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

Something really cute(:

Maybe im just too horrendously gullible.

2010-07-05T02:08:00.000-07:00

Infinity.

photo by yours truly(:
*-*-*

Been a really eventful weekEND.
Met up with de two closest friends from Waraku on Thursday.
Eclipse with other 10peeps from my BMC class on Friday.
Susanne's wonderful 21st on Saturday.
Sashimi with church peeps
followed by mini gathering with poly peeps on Sunday.

God, Im so blessed(:
and i thought i've been forgotten

**
Last Sunday's study session
ended really unexpectedly.
Though I got strong objections from Toh&co.
And i thought it was a good sign.
Maybe im just too horrendously gullible.
Boo. :(
But then, we'll just see how things go alright?

**
Had A LOT of HTHs.
Some more frustrating than others
but they all gave me a head-on reality check.

2010-06-30T14:30:00.000-07:00

i smiled.

2010-06-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

Finally
a good saturday;
a good, wholesome yet simple
impromptu day

I got to see the
partial lunar eclipse
(plus the south cross, scorpio constellation...)
with a couple of randomish peeps

you know,
things really never go
according to plans huh?

ps: picture is damn retarded if you manage to figure it out.
But it made me laugh on the way home
thinking about how it came about.
HAHA(:

not okay yet

2010-06-19T23:04:00.000-07:00

i'd lie enough to make me believe

2010-06-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

Stay happy?

How?
Not in the best of moods to begin with this week(and last)
Even W. felt something was out.
My, the most unexpected person to take notice.
Amazed.

I've decided
not to be happy
Neither am i gonna be sadsadsad and become some emo shiet
and drag everyone's mood to the depths of hell

i will be okay.

how's that for some optimism?(:

So if you haven't seen me in awhile
only 2 possible reasons:

1. I'm trying to get whatever(in me) straightened out.
2. I may not be okay if i see you.(tsk)

I wanna be neutral.
PS: mugging my brains out seem to be working.
(though v,v unhealthy + truckloads of nagging from all around)

How i've been living(and will cont to live for the nxt...)
2hours of sleep.
School.
Sleep 5hours.
Starbucks(: <---i should move there.

^im not stressed; just wanna be on the same page.

*I hate worldcup =(
it makes yishun's starbucks crowded T.T

Only one downside:
Im becoming pandaish (O.O)

Okay staying home tonight cos..
I should give mom some ease/sense of my presence
something of that sort.
HAHA

♥ JASON YANG

2010-06-16T17:14:00.000-07:00

JASON YANG

seriously,
what's not to like about this guy?
Ear-candy♥
eyecandy too?
hmm.. okay i only like his hair though. (:
x)

love

2010-06-16T16:52:00.000-07:00

2010-06-15T13:57:00.000-07:00

"And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now"
-Not Afraid by Eminem

brokened

2010-06-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

More than you will ever know

2010-06-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

Will not blog anymore until there's a happy event
or something of that sort.
Cant stand this blog being so emo alr laaaa.
Don't you agree?
Apologies.
Can't help it =(

Many thanks especially to
Toh
Mich
Ryan
(no particular order btw)

Whom without i would definitely
disintegrate during de past few months
Yall should very well know what i'm talking about
hmm...

much, much ♥

2010-06-09T13:02:00.000-07:00

"Science knows it doesn't know everything,
otherwise it would've stopped"
-Dara O'Brien

you

2010-06-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

Come to think of it,
I think i've pretty much wasted my time
On things that would probably never happen
Over things that have the possibility of happening

It's time to get it out of my system.
Cos i've pretty much got whatever i'm feeling sorted out.
feels like shiet btw. x)

It's amazing how just one question from a friend can
snap you back to reality.

"..isn't it enough?"

-♥ Tang(:
ohmy, i miss miss miss soo too =/

Think i need more of that.
Reality check i mean.
Smacking me in the head works too(:

wo jiu jing zai deng dai zhe she me ne?

***
On the sidenote,
jus got home(:
body clock's damn screwed
but i dont care(:

these words

2010-06-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

hello
i miss you.

2010-06-04T03:55:00.000-07:00

"I don’t have a fear of commitment - I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up; I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it but I keep pushing because I hope in this thing - the universe. There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad. If I want it, someone else out there must, too."

-tumblr

That's how/what i'm feeling.

**I've been awake for more than 24hrs...
Let's see how long till i finally K.O.

2010-06-03T13:48:00.000-07:00

Song on repeat at the moment...

Company in tears

2010-06-01T00:15:00.000-07:00

No,
you don't understand.

starbucks experience

2010-05-31T15:03:00.000-07:00

For 2~~days~~nights in a row

And pretty mornings from God(:

Nike Ad

2010-05-31T12:58:00.000-07:00

Not a fan of soccer
but this ad's pretty awesome(:

Reliance?

2010-05-30T01:40:00.000-07:00

I really need to get a job.
This "dont-work-just-study" thing
seriously isnt working.

I really want to study;
to do well;
~~to piss everyone off with my good results;~~
but got no money nor the blardy...
to achieve that.

So rich--> intelligence

I. get. it. now.

Yes.
I'm pissed.
Oh wait..
I pity myself more.

So,
you think your life sucks?

immensity

2010-05-28T12:49:00.000-07:00

just this picture is enough.
=(

2010-05-27T17:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO THERE(:
to whoever STILL visits this sad-ass blog.
hahas.

Midyears are over.
Some wake-up call there.
(it's like those nightmares that you makes
you wake up screaming)

Stressed that im having insomnia
Deprived me from having fun when im out with friends
(half the time im thinking of the obvious =/)

On the side note,
It suddenly hit me
i realised that i have changed.
Quite a lot actually.
Though,
I havent decided whether it's really good for me
cos i feel like i lost the things that made me..
well, me.

And..
Her.
(no, im not a lesbian or anything :D)
She's my greatest worry/fear.
The one that keeps me praying to God.
I just want her to like me (O.o)
It's to the point that most decisions i make,
i'd wonder what/how she would see me.
She's the bar im trying HARD to reach.

And you wished you knew who she was.
She's my next hurdle. =/

lalalala(;
Friday friday friday ♥
hope the plan falls through(:
*prays to God and crosses fingers!*

my river

2010-05-21T10:09:00.000-07:00

Last minute decision to go for saturate service today.
That i really thank God for.(:

I felt like i came home
to my worst nightmares.
Really couldn't help but wonder
what i'd do if i was at home tonight.

Whoever said that i have a cosy house..

Tonight's scene was like the last straw
for me this weeks that i've been feeling
on the inside..

I know all these doesn't make sense

**
I'm just a forgotten apple...
am i not wrong to say that?

2010-05-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

my many insecurities
inferior
incompetent
imperfect
immature

Bottom line;
i'm not good enough.

need i say more?

cannot

2010-05-17T11:45:00.001-07:00

Can't.
I really can't do this.
=(

2010-05-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Look at the stars...

And i genuinely smiled for the first time today
after watching this vid(:

fathers

2010-05-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

then i guess...
i haven't found the boy who doesn't.

Memories - Within Temptations

2010-05-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

In this world you tried,
Not leaving me alone behind.
There's no other way,
I pray to the gods let him stay.
The memories ease the pain inside,
And now I know why.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears

Made me promise I'd try,
To find my way back in this life.
Hope there is a way,
To give me a sign you're okay.
Reminds me again it's worth it all,
So I can go home.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent whispers, silent tears.

Together in all these memories,
I see your smile.
All of the memories I hold dear.
Darling you know I'll love you,
Til the end of time.

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears.

All of my memories...

2010-05-11T19:11:00.000-07:00

Hello(:
Jus to clarify..
Im not suicidal =.=

Im just pretty emo most of the time
usually in writings and whatnots.

Anyway,

deskmj.tumblr.com

Finally(:

broken up

2010-05-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

God,
i hope you hear through the tears
i cant seem to say anything
past the words,
"Dear God..."

looking at food makes me happy(ier)

2010-05-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

I hate myself;
More than you can ever imagine.

Anyways,Looking at food makes me happy(ier)

INDULGE.x)

SALIVATE(:ps: there's a link to all these so u can tumblr all u want xD

Ah yes,
if you havent already realised
im super in love with strawberries(:
Cant believe Pepper Potts(?) from Ironman is allergic to em.
Tsk.

BTW,
hmmm....(:

should i get a pair?
i adore them many many
but just afraid that i got no guts to wear em
(or de freaking legs to T.T)

2010-05-06T00:14:00.000-07:00

Here's the video that made me fell in love with the song(:

For a procrastinator like me;
I gotta listen to this on a daily basis.

On a sidenote,
Cant we do this in SG? =/
Reasons why i cant stand being a sillyporean=.=

"Till I Collapse"
(feat. Nate Dogg)

'Cause sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.

Till I collapse I’m spilling these raps long as you feel em
Till the day that I drop you'll never say that I'm not killing them
Cause when I am not then I am stop pinning them
And I am not hip-hop and I’m just not Eminem.
Subliminal thoughts when I'm stop sending them women are caught in webs spin and hauk venom
Adrenaline shots of penicillin could not get the illing to stop.
Amoxacilin is just not real enough.
The criminal cop killing hip-hop filling minimal swap to cop millions of Pac listeners.
Your coming with me, feel it or not you’re gonna fear it like I showed you the spirit of god lives in us.
You hear it a lot, lyrics the shock is it a miracle or am I just a product of pop fizzing up.
For shizzle my whizzle this is the plot listen up you bizzles forgot slizzle does not give a fuck.

[Chorus - NateDogg]
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out - am I high? Perhaps
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out and my high burn out
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.

Music is like magic there’s a certain feeling you get when your real
and you spit and people are feeling your shit.
This is your moment and every single minute you spend trying to hold onto it
cause you may never get it again.
So while you’re in it try to get as much shit as you can
and when your run is over just admit when its at its end.
Cause I'm at the end of my wits with half this shit that gets in.
I got a list here's the order of my list that it's in.
It goes, Reggie, Jay-Z, Tupac and Biggie, Andre from Outcast, Jada, Kurupt, Nas and then me.
But in this industry I'm the cause of a lot of envy, so when I’m not put on this list the shit does not offend me.
That's why you see me walk around like nothing's bothering me.
Even though half you people got a fucking problem with me.
You hate it but you know respect you’ve got to give me
The press's wet dream like Bobby and Whitney. Nate hit me.

Soon as a verse starts I eat it at MC’s heart
what is he thinking? How not to go against me? Smart.
And its absurd how people hang on every word.
I’ll probably never get the props I feel I ever deserve
But I’ll never be served my spot is forever reserved
If I ever leave earth that would be the death of me first.
Cause in my heart of hearts I know nothing could ever be worse.
That’s why I’m clever when I put together every verse
My thoughts are sporadic, I act like I’m an addict
I rap like I’m addicted to smack like I’m Kim Mathers.
But I don’t want to go forth and back in constant battles
The fact is I would rather sit back and bomb some rappers.
So this is like a full blown attack I’m launching at them
The track is on some battling raps who want some static
Cause I don’t really think that the fact that I’m Slim matters
A plaque of platinum status is whack if I'm not the baddest.

[Eminem & Natedogg Echo:]
Until the roof
The roof comes off
Until my legs
give out from underneath me

[Eminem:]
I will not fall,
I will stand tall,
Feels like no one could beat me.

Cafe Mocha's my official study buddy x)

2010-05-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

credits: deviantart.com

Cafe Mocha's my official study buddy x)

Impromptu mugging session
proven productive(:
Surprisingly.
We should do this more often.
Or maybe just me.

36hours.
Overflowing goodness(:
Im officially running on overdose.
Hehe(:

Right.
Need. Sleep. Now.

ilu(:

2010-04-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

2010-04-30T00:06:00.000-07:00

I should stop deceiving myself
If life goes the way i want it to be
then i wouldnt be doing whatever im doing now

ZM says, "it's the way you think"

I guess
that happens
when you want something to happen too much

You think too much into it.

This year will go up in flames.
The wait
My hopes
And the dreams
And im actually quite sure of it

And im usually right about the bad stuff

Oh.
History seems to have its way of repeating itself.
The fugly parts.
Like i need any of that now.

Give me a reason to stay.

2010-04-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

Could really use a long hug right now.

2010-04-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

Seriously.
What the hell am i thinking
or doing?

Toh.. =(

2010-04-20T11:08:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh.
It's 2:09am now.
But before i go mug
(hopefully productive!)
Here's a nice picture i found
randomly on tumblr(:
Nice uh? x)
And yes,
violins are still whiny to me..
Okay, sometimes. =x

Alrightey,
Physics here i come..
Sigh.

To michelle and other crazy physics people,
I ♥♥♥ CHEMISTRYYYYY =DDD

2010-04-19T04:56:00.001-07:00

...dentistry.
tsk.

♥ is powerful

2010-04-13T00:03:00.000-07:00

..♥..
it's amazing.
it makes you do things
you probably never
even dreamt of doing
you'd even want to
achieve the impossible
Just because.

Love.
Isnt amazing actually
it's the drive when you do.

It's when you
decided that it's going to be
worth it
A motivation.
to spur you on
even though you know
you're stuck with a bitch called Uncertainty
and an asshole called Fear.

You'd still want to persevere.

***
the bible sums it up pretty awesome-ly(:

"Love... always hopes, always perseveres"
1Cor 13:7

***

Okay...
Just something random
that hit me today(:
Okay maybe not that random.
Inspired while talking to someone
and overheard another
in my class today
yay :D

**
Ps: dont gimme that face.
just being in the moment(:

2010-04-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

And so,
SMAE's FO is officially over.
Tomorrow's another monday.
Been really fun and all
catching up with the guys(:
Camwhoreed :D
Mass sleeping in club.
Going down West Coast for supper
In the middle of the nightwalk at 3am(:
Frisbee~
Seen the BEST shim ever(:
Many cute funny peeps around.
Bitchiest girl. Ever.
She wins hands down.
HAHAS.

The only downside is...
I dont know the later gen peeps.
GAWD.
Im olddddd and uselesssss. =(

Nuff' said.
Piccas xD

Ahh. Kinda in love with de light effect(:The important peeps in my SP life =]

Toh(:

Fatin caught pinching food xD

And she's always so arty farty(:

Avatar~Dressing up kasper the best shim.
Period(:
I swear he looks damn pretty.
Like a girl from behind cos of his legs.
HAha(:

Soccer field. Canvas. Soap. Water xD

Honestly
i dont/wont Ever regret going for SMAE/MM events.
After all,
they pretty much colored up my life(:

RYAN'S 19TH(:

2010-04-06T00:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAY RYAN CHIA LIMING!!

ya..Pleasant surprise uh?(:
(Ps: supposed to be 2more pics here but argh. cant load!)
All that i wanted to say is all in de Pokeball already.
Hahas.Initially was in a dontknowwhattowrite mode
Then it got longer and longer...(:

We even managed to camwhore xD
Alrights,
everything else's on facebook.
HEHE.
So fun^^

2010-04-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

I'd melt everytime i hear this(:
Sighhh~
♥♥♥

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

2010-04-04T22:44:00.000-07:00

2010-04-02T11:17:00.000-07:00

@ Ice Cream Chefs(:

And so TGIGF
ended pretty swell today(:

Ahem
Looking forward to tomorrow =D

and i screw this up

2010-04-01T09:23:00.000-07:00

Im sorry.

being in de middle is no fun.
Ive got nowhere to lean on.
And i jus made it worse.
My fault.
My bad.
My everything.

:'(

fickle-ickle

2010-03-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

Gahh.
Screw dieting
(as if i ever started!)
I'd like a chunk of that. xD

Ah.
And i dont think you can find
another who's
more fickle minded than me.(:
Not like it's a good thing.
Hahas.

too emo to function

2010-03-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

too bloody emo to function today.
not in the mood to face tomorrow either...

untitled

2010-03-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

be brutally honest with me.
I kinda prefer that.
The honesty that comes
when what you say doesnt go through your
mind first but straight
to your mouth.

I kinda need that.

little house with love

2010-03-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

♥

Amanda Seyfried : Little House

I love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart
Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less
Than we wanted
We wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know
we do not know

To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know

You can catch me
Don't you run
Don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay

To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know

Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I made
I am here to stay

I am here to stay

Stay

bottled inside

2010-03-17T13:00:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt
like asking someone so many questions
but you dont even have the guts to
Simply because you arent ready for the answers
And because your brain tells you that
you'd get more hurt knowing
But your heart still wants to hold on to that
0.01% chance

give up des, give up.
***

Today was total madness.
Lemme list down de nonsense.

*Drama amongst classmates at BMC.
(tsk. too many girls in de class = bitching/vulgarities)
*GP compre i had to struggle to finish(didnt manage to =/)
*Decided that tomorrow's my last day at Shokudo.
*Hmm. Love confession(?) ewww.=/
*OCD customer cant get enough of me.

***
Apologies if i sound cold or something.
Not in the best of moods this week.
Feel damn $%^&#@!@#$%... okay.

BUTBUTBUT...
Im looking forward to FIRDAY!!
Gonna see SOO & TANG and de other CIE peeps(:
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
at least they are friends who wont make me cry

2010-03-16T04:45:00.001-07:00

Feeling the worst today.

i hate this feeling.

2010-03-14T10:48:00.001-07:00

Tsk. tsk.

Hate how im feeling today.
#$%@!^&*

~~~~
note to self:
i will make tomorrow a good day.(:

2010-03-12T12:10:00.000-08:00

***

Got so many things to blog about
but i end up deleting whatever i just typed.
tsk tsk.

Oh,
i wanna(really do) watch
'ALICE IN WONDERLAND'
but like everyone has watched it.

One more thing,
it really sucks not being pretty.
Really.

psst

2010-03-09T22:20:00.000-08:00

i wanna watch
'alice in wonderland'...

Freaking haze is killing me.
...okay mabbe not.

Got the urge/craving(?!)
to go roller-blade(ing)!

Kinda miss the times where
the my friends would cycle
and i'll have to catch up with em.
LOls.

tumblr hopping

2010-03-09T22:09:00.000-08:00

so cute~! ^^,

my resolve

2010-03-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

I've officially decided.

To take/chiong 'A' levels this year.
Insane I know.

But seriously,
there's no time to procrastinate anymore.

Motivation motivation.
I need people to mugg with me =/
I admit,
cant do this alone.

subjects i can chiong..
BUT
my english is horrendous
how?
T.T

2months down

2010-03-04T23:43:00.000-08:00

"should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where.."
-Chasing Pavements by Adele

hello March(:
Yay, february's over.
CNY's a bitch so im not gonna talk about it.
But the going out with friends like SO MUCH made it pretty bearable(:

Hee.
So fun.

Okay,
tomorrow's the bloody-last-freaking-paper-that-i-cant-seem-to-get-rid-of paper
Hahas.
And i realised i typed paper twice.
LOLs

Pray pray pray
that i dont doze off while studying.
*fingers crossed*
Especially so when im studying alone.
Zero motivation whatsoever.

Gahhh.
I missed studying with Alwyn & Soo.
T.T

Tomorrow's the A level results thingy.
Im like damn sure Michelle and Rachelle will do fab,
Agree?
Hmm..
And i actually made a little(okay massive) agreement with God too.
All shall unveil tomorrow...

stuck

2010-02-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

i should get this to remind myself.

***
sometime ago,
someone said i was pessimistic...

am i?
Too much gloom in my life already
i guess.

I dont know how to be like lolipop happy anymore.

cupcake madness

2010-02-11T09:27:00.000-08:00

♥

always had this secret desire to bake stuff
but poor me got no oven (T.T)

so was soo excited when eleanor smsed me(:
It was just last week that de girls went cedele@frankel
and we talked about going to ps daph's house to bake

And today we did!

Met up at Tampines' Giant to get the ingredients and stuff.
The queue to pay was lonnngggggg...
Ya sure, peeps socking up for CNY.
But seriously man,
if tomorrow got war or smth,
Sporeans would survive well. =x

Honestly,
I had ZERO idea what we were going to do/bake
So many recepies and mouth-watering pictures.
Hahas.
So we or they settled on making cupcakes.
Totally trial and error method.
We all thought cupcakes would turn out nice with a roundish top
but no,
it was flat and sunken.
1st try then 2nd try.
Poor Rachel had to go to work so she left early.
Shucks, she didnt even manage to try the 1st batch! :(
We even called Lydia who's in Australia right now!
Talk about desperate measures.
Went online and researched all this while.
Really, trial and error.
Then batch 3.

Imagine how many cupcakes we made if each tray had 15.
whoo~
But we ate some along de way.
I remember eating the uglier ones. Hahas.
The prettier ones where left for decoration(:

Shall call today : "the trial and error day"

But really,
was touched that they remembered to ask me along.
So happy(:
I mean,
I wasnt even close to them
(ps daph and rachel,except eleanor la but that was years ago)
awesome feeling. =D

Know me well enough
will know how much i totally Hate asking stuff like,
"can i go...?" etc etc.
Especially when the person answers some
halfhearted answer like,"anything" or "up to you"
or some other crap answer
almost said wtf but.. okay i typed it already.
LOL.
Feeling irritated now cos i realised
i know just too many people who ans like that.

ANYWAY...

First time baking...
First time going to Ps Daph's house..
( i totally adore her house; especially de kitchen! So black/white!)

Hopefully,
many more 'first times' this year!

stupid memory

2010-02-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

indeed.

After so many years of not seeing you
even lesser talking to you even
I simply had this mindless chat with you
for like 5mins(?)
awhile ago
It hit me in the head
that you still had that certain control over me
I feel like i like/love/whatever-you-call it(?) you longer than i know
Maybe i havent really forgotten you

**
Okay, abit too open.
Really hesitated whether to publish this or not.
Ohwells.
Freedom of speech right?
Just needed to get this out la.
Anways,
got myself sorted out already.

For 2010, my priorities are:
1. Getting God to tell me... =]
2. Studies(wherever im getting)
3. My bike.
(to zm: i got her/him already, do i need another love?)^^

2010-02-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

Im a boring person.
Really.

my days turned for the better

2010-02-04T07:45:00.000-08:00

And so,
my somewhat mundane days
turned for the better this week(:

Went STEAMBOAT CULTURE yesterday.
With Ps Daph, steph poh, rachelle, rachel and eleanor(:
Quite cool leh.
Each of us had an individual pot,
so we just shared the ingredients and stuff.
Dessert we had fondue~!!
Awesome-ness.
Realised that i havent eaten
so much healthy food(veg,tofu etc)
Even the fondue had strawberries((: and bananas.
Healthy~

Today!
Went Pasir Ris Park to cycle.
Quite cool(:
Had the guys relieving their childhood memories(all on facebook)
LOL
Camwhoredddd..

What it looks like from rachel's camera.
...Then what it looks like from aaron's camera/view.

Nice.

Had dinner.
Then randomly decided to catch a movie
since it was kinda early(7+pm only)
Watch 14blades (like its in chinese!)

But ahh.. ♥WU ZHUN♥
*hyperventilates*
But he sounds kinda weird in the movie.
Mabbe just my ears. haha(:

Got the sporean actor, Qi YiWu so odd.
The way he dies is so.. singaporean drama.
HAHAHAHAHAS.

Okay la.
School for A FREAKING HOUR tomorrow.
grrrr....
Im craving for cheesecakes and ice cream(:

Cant stopp..
I ♥WU ZHUN
hehe(:

2010-02-03T08:46:00.000-08:00

Ever wondered how the universe came about?
I mean like how exactly.
Then theories would come spilling in
Like Darwin's theory of evolution,
Big bang theory(?),
and of course, Bible's Genesis' chpt 1.
Call me odd but I'd really like to erm...
research/study/really find out about it.
I mean,
isnt it absolutely awesome if there really is a 'real' answer?
Gives me the goosebumps just thinking about it.

Just one of the many things
I think about on daily/monthly/regular basis

Like wouldnt you wanna find out the truth too?

Okay. Damn. Random.

**

By the way, the above is for RYAN CHIA(:
It seems u're having a tough week.
JIAYOU many many~

Town-ing

2010-02-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

Exactly 2weeks after de accident man...

And im...

SHOPPING~~!!
with TOH(:

Bought a cuople of things.
*vans shoes!!
(pretty close to the abby shoe design so im quite contented)
*2shorts
*and a kimmidoll.

What's a kimmidoll?
You'll see them retailing at Precious thots shop.
This is the one i bought(:

Currently my 2nd one.
Apparently there's quite alot so i'm gonna TRY
to buy one every month.
Jus hope they dont suddenly dissappear(yikes!)

Ohya,
mom got a job!
whoots(:
Like finally can...

Ps: unfortunately, i dont/cant seem to update very much simply because i have a pretty mundane life. Sadded. Especially now that i got like all de time in the world.

Im gonna make sure i work like no tomorrow nxt week or smth.
That'll get my mind off alot of things.
Hopefully...

lost

2010-01-30T10:05:00.000-08:00

Im
stuck
lost
nowhere to go.

2 more days
Application to NTU/NUS will open

I'll confess
Fear of rejection runs deep
Or maybe
Fear of knowing the truth
runs deeper

I'll openly say here

"If i get into ANY course in NTU/NUS,
it can only be GOD.
cos desiree koh m j will never be able to make it in."

Seriously.

I only have ONE resolution this year.
Just one.

In another thing;
I think im trying too hard.
Hot then cold?
I'll take it as a big hint.

:)

2010-01-26T09:57:00.000-08:00

man.
i can only dream to dance like that
dream.

HAD A GOOD, GOOD DAY TODAY :))
♥ michelle, susanne,r rachelle, ryan & euvin. ♥
thanks for your patience(:
ohya, and the birthday thingy is wayyyy too early.
HAHA :D

tears

2010-01-23T01:53:00.000-08:00

My Jesus, my Savior,
Lord, there is none like You

All of my days, I want to praise,
The wonders of your mighty  love

My comfort, my shelter,
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

C:
Shout to the Lord, all the earth let us sing,
Power and majesty, praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar, 
At the sound of your name

I sing for joy at the work of your hands
Forever I'll love you, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

Cried when i heard this song in de car.
mom's fren came over and picked us up for lunch.
nice(:
Oddly enough,
i can still remember the hand sign(somewhat) to this song la.
***

Didnt/couldnt go BS today.
Kinda disappointed la.
Although LIQI was so nice as to offer to drive me there.
But i still cant really walk.
Been trying everyday. Sheesh.

**
Wrote a song during the period of my accident.
Only one problem.
I just suck at figuring out chords.
ahh.. :(




*manage to resist.
Im doing well,
and i'll take it as a no.

decaying

2010-01-20T19:29:00.000-08:00

hello.
Im still pretty much bandaged.
But at least my hands aint anymore.(:
And it totally sucks.
Cant really walk though
so i got my mom to buy crutches for me.
No way im gonna go out with de wheelchair.
Super duperly troublesome.

Thanks for those who came to visit me!
Susanne and Ryan((:
Nick, my bike forum friend(:
And Kairui who will come over tonight(:

But,
I really dont have much to say to kinda awkward i feel lo.
Sighhhh.

I especially superly touched for my friends who were on the scene that day.
Samantha, her bf louis and vivien.
Without them, i would have just lie there and die or something.
hahas.
They stayed with me all the way until around 6am!
And i've met many nice people along the way too(:

ANYWAY~
I really hope i can make it to church on sat & sun!!
Cant really walk properly(even with crutches! need more practice)
Yikess!!

~~eyecandy...impossible.~~

mundane monday

2010-01-18T04:46:00.000-08:00

crossroads;

everyone will come to one at least once in their life.

I jus cant believe im facing one now.
Or is it a dead end?
Feels like one though.

All in all.
I think i'll pretty much stick to engineering.
I still like machines but hate math all de same.
Love-hate relationship i guess..
LOL :D

ANYWAY~~

Last Saturday and sunday was kinda fun :D
Havent not work on both days consecutively
since only-God-knows-when LOL

Sat(:
Soccer!
Watch the girls play feels more fun/exciting xD
(or maybe cos michelle and all were screaming and whatnots!)
Hotdog bbq/open house afterwards..
hmm.. interesting concept and how they run the event.
Then a whole lot of us went laura/gabs' rooftop.
FREEZING COLD UP THERE ON THE 32ND STOREY
Yikes!
Totally loved the view(:
I could just sit there for hours...
Okay enough des!
Then a few of them had to go home eventually
but peeps like me,michelle,susanne,ryan,abel
and laura's fren 1,2 and3 (plus laura and gabriel la)
decided to actually Walk to ecp macs!
Gosh. Loved the company(:
Havent laughed like that in awhile.
Yayness :D

Sunday(:
Imagine my amazement when i slept around 4am
and woke up at 7 thinking of mc griddless?
Im seriously wacked out. LOl.
Went flute lesson.
My teacher, mr zufar's tone still makes me melt
and im more motivated to play like him.
Totally awesome okay *faints*
Chiong to church afterwards.
Luch/'reunion' at some random restaurant at katong.
Super family feel Haha.
Chilled at.. Changi airport...
then finally ended up with laura,michelle,susanne and i
at the rooftop again.
Girls talk(: Nice.

I seriously think im damn old already lo.
Most of what we talked about
i feel that i could relate to/been-there-done-that
kinda feeling.
Gosh. -.-

Maybe AGE really does matter eh?

ohya,
i miss the MM OUTINGS!!
TOH!!
like so rare now.. T.T

reflection

2010-01-12T09:42:00.000-08:00

A full day of rest today(:
Very, very rare.
Just slpt and slpt.
Woke up a little to clean my hamster cages.
(i've got two btw; angel and lil taz)

sleepppp...

Then woke up suddenly and went for a movie with vivi.
'Alvin and de chipmunks2'
I love theodore x)))))

argh...
Work tomorrow =(

**
tired to sketch out the image God gave to me last sunday.
Failed terribly but it was still strong in my mind.
I guess foundations and where/what your priorities are are important eh.
Yeah, i still do feel kinda out of place due to my severe MIA and all.
But, at the same time, i still want to know what im put here on earth for.
I've lived a cold-hearted life since 2005.
(If i cant be on continual fire then let me be cold)

Well, you jus cant run away from God.

God, what am i here for?
Im sure soon, this will all make sense(:

Im back

2010-01-04T06:26:00.000-08:00

Hello(:
Yeah.
Im back to blogging.

Let's see how long this blog of mine will last eh?
Hurhur.

Oh,
i've linked up some of you
so if i missed anyone, lemme know and i'll link you up(: